Contemplating Life
September 28, 2009
Will we find eachother in the dark?
I wish I could come back to you
Once again feel the rain
Falling inside me
Cleaning all that I've become
Standing on the edge of the abyss once more
It brings back the times I've been here before
And so I plunge myself into the memory of you
What else can I do?
Maybe with you I'll feel a bit more sane
Drag me away from this rollercoaster
Save my mind from ripping my soul apart
Stop me from thinking
Stop me from sinking
Brother of my heart
The cold, harsh gray all around me, I can see
The seething blackness that threatens me
Memories of white and gold on the other side
Preying on my mind
Maybe in you I find some peace again
Hope for life to give me an offer I can understand
Erase the months to make us whole
Save me from drowning
Save me from howling
Brother of my soul
Is this
what I
really
wanted?
And it was as it would ever be
A little too close, yet still too far away
You were what you could never be
My first love without a name or face
And I was what I could never be
The love of your life
Forever, just for one night
I never wanted the morning to arrive
Never wanted to leave this room behind
Lost in the maze of my heart
Drowning in the river of a moment of love
Will I spend until the end of time
Trying to forget the color in your eyes
And who we were that night?
Close my eyes to make me erase you
Close my eyes but I can still see you
Whose are the tears in my mind?
And the heart in my mouth, is it mine?
Words like a waterfall inside
But there's a wall between us in your mind
Will we be alright?
I will not deny that nothing can defend
From the helplessness that's cutting deep inside
And I ran as fast as I could
Just to get away from what I knew
To get away from the truth
Get away from losing you
The passing hours tear me apart
The fear grows colder in my heart
And it chokes down my thoughts
It chokes down my trust
And I find myself trying to hate that fear
More than I hate myself
I find myself trying to feel worthy
While I keep blaming myself
And I try not to regret
Loving you
Because, you know, I really do
And I fly as high as I can
Just to see if I will understand
To see if I reached out my hand
Far enough for you to take
But it's not my move to make
No longer
And I've had some practice waiting
(Forever)
I can wait again
(Forever)
A small yet very loud part of me is still screaming after you
Title and italic parts in order of appearance taken from:
Nightwish - Beauty of the Beast 2x
Riverside - Before
VNV Nation - Rubicon
Sonata Arctica - Good enough is good enough