September 5, 2009

Serpents

[002]

I won't shed a tear, I won't show no fear
Won't disappoint you, dad
I won't miss you dad..

Repeating the sentence inside my head
I'm not scared, I won't be sad
The cold is temporary
The avalanche won't kill me
(But it might sweep me away)
Keep that smile upon my face
Don't fall down, don't stop the pace
Since that day I lost your track
There was never turning back
(I will just keep running)

I have tried to forget my memories
Remind myself that life will still go on
But the storm that I am in is not relenting
The road I walk on never seemed so long
(I am afraid)

But, daddy, I miss you so..
And I need your hand
Dad, I'm alone here...

Can you see me now?
Counting back the days; Like an endless yesterday
280, 17, and further down
Counting back the memories; until you fade away
(3, 2, 1 - Now you are gone)
My head spinning, avoiding the thoughts
Spiral to the point of no return
My escape plan gone, running for a fall
The pulse of life, a web of hurt
(The days of death that followed)

Let me break the things I love, I need to cry

[501]

Lust is my all consuming reason..

The steps forward that I never dared to take
Suddenly seem like a valuable escape
I break away from my confusion
Willingly immerse myself in this illusion
(Safe beneath the surface of my dream)
No one else has ever seen it
But you have thought of this before
I believe the glance you sent me
And the welcome sign over your door
(Want and Need still fighting over me)

I always gave eternal love another chance..

You know I know too much to still be blinded
By the perfect game you play before our eyes
The pain you dealt remained in plain sight
I have learned to see through all your lies
(But I accept the consequence)
Don't run from me, I'm not your enemy
The fear you hold is just a shadow of your past
Don't hide from me, because I will see
With open eyes I will embrace your heart
(Just don't give up on us)

Don't say goodbye
Don't say I didn't try

August 27, 2009

On every page I turn, there appears your face

Memories...
I have swallowed all these tears
Memories...
Thought they'd be gone after all these years
Memories...

I catch myself staring at the embers
Of a bridge that once had led me to your door

Memories of distant days
A different life
A different place in time
Memories of dreams I chased
A different view
A different me and you

When I try my best, I can still remember
To rebuild that bridge, but stronger than before

So
Close your eyes
Relax and take a deep breath now
Believe the lies

Sweet dreams
Beneath the choking waves of your fantasy
Saying you've let go, but never trusting yourself with me
Given chances, but never taking time
Safely tucked inside the familiar pattern of the lie
Sleep tight

Sweet dreams, sleep tight
Fly from the truth that eats at your mind
Sweet dreams, sleep safe within
Fly from the chains that are burning your skin
Fly far from everything

Flee from opening your eyes
For waking up awakens all the lies

You know just what the truth is..
You feel it every day

In the memory of you and I
That you keep hidden behind your eyes
Resides the world you've tried to escape
Patient, just waiting, unafraid

Truth won't run away
Love still stays the same

I've turned to wash away the stains
I thought nothing would remain
But yours was the name I couldn't erase
You are still the one I can't replace

Nothing lasts forever but you..
You do

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