November 6, 2009

Autumn Rain

I felt safely tucked in the high of the day
At least it momentarily seemed that way
But then your shaking voice on the other side of the line
Told me that you tried to take your life again last night

I felt the silence spread coldly within me
Do you even see what this is doing to me?
Stirring the remains of last November
Do you remember?

How the red water rains
(Washing yourself away)
How the red water stains
(The image never fades)
Cut veins

Run that cold steel blade across your skin
Let out all the poison that you keep within
Willfully sink into the water - Take yourself deep down
Maybe you will drown before you're found

Desperately try to die this time
End forever with the edge of a sharp knife
Dive into subconsciousness - Take yourself deep down
Maybe you will sleep before you're found

Red water on the floor
(Such a mess you've made)
Someone opened the door
(Will it ever be too late?)
It still rains

Tell me the details, as if I don't remember
Tell me all the memories of last November
Disregard my wish to not recall
Draw me in and push me against the wall

Guilt will haunt me until the day you're dead
Can you see its chains or are they in my head?
And you are dying so terribly slow
Now that I know..

I can no longer stop you from putting an end to it all
If you need saving, I'm the last one you should call
For I'm tired, though it shames me to admit
If this is foreplay, let's just get it over with